Always and Never

so it's been a month and all I have to say is....

Tue, 23 May 2006 01:15:45 GMT

didn't go to either of the concerts mentioned earlier. did go to Imogen Heap. it was amazing. Currently looking around jesse's massive collection of music. hopefully going to nashville monday. that's it.

Jeremy

hey...

Mon, 24 Apr 2006 21:17:03 GMT

guess what Jesse, Gov't Mule and They Might Be Giants are playing Sundown. Ha Ha Ha you Oklahoma bastard, that's what you get.

Jeremy

Check This Out

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 22:11:49 GMT

http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/mariocommunist

happy new year

Sun, 01 Jan 2006 05:00:39 GMT

yeah, just got back from a party at my friends house. fun fun. Listening to Peter "Lando" Griffin singing give up the toad to welcome the new year. Well, here it is, welcome 2006.

Jeremy

Ye-Yeah?

Sat, 26 Nov 2005 23:12:07 GMT

Ok, so I haven't been updating this thing in a while, so I felt like I should. I hope everyone had a happy thanksgiving, a say that celebrates gluttony, hooray gluttons! So yeah I got blitz the league and am now addicted to it. I saw Walk The Line yesterday and I suggest you all go see it, right now because it kicks the ass. So yeah I guess I'm out, later.

Jeremy

Say It Isn't So

Wed, 16 Nov 2005 21:21:18 GMT

But yes it is, as of sunday, the Ramones hoodie you have all grown to know and love will be officially retired for good. People have already asked if they could have it, no you can not, but if you want to wear it and give it a proper send off you can. If I could I would cut it up and give you each a part of it, but mom wants to keep it to have one thing of mine that she can keep when I leave. Yeah, got my class ring today. Really I just don't have anything else to say, so I'm gone

word life

Sun, 06 Nov 2005 05:45:57 GMT

im an emo kid god dammit... and i rock... and matt lang is the fucking shit... all my friends on myspace and on here add him... just look him up... "redwinterdied...this is fucking renaissance" yeah anyway bye

Splee!

Fri, 14 Oct 2005 21:04:38 GMT

Hey, going to Kings of Leon today, I'm making up for not seeing them at the 'Roo. Fall break is almost over. Crossroads saturday, get to see Shawna, yay! Yeah. Not much else. My dad got a Dell, Dude! sorry, had to say it. So I think I'm going to shave my mustache and surprise everyone at school, but maybe over winter break, not now. I'm tired of dealing with my long hair, it's about time for a cut I think. Yeah, nothing really left to say, except, SPLEE!!!!!

Jeremy

London is Calling. Pick Up The Damn Phone

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 22:21:31 GMT

This entry is directed mostly toward my brother.

HOW BOUT THEM REDSKINS BITCH!!!!!

2-0
and what are your Packers doing, uh, was it 0-2, YEAH!!

Jeremy

Primitive The Way I Treat You

Thu, 21 Jul 2005 23:48:29 GMT

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
skateboard accident

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
band pics

3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
what cell phone?

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LIKE TO LISTEN TO?
all but new rap and new country

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
no

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
the friendship I used to have with someone, I'm not saying who

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS AT TIMES?
some of my friends that I haven't seen since school

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?
all my music

9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
i don't know

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
no, I've been put in a trunk before

11. IF YOU DIED TOMORROW:
I would want my life's soundtrack to be made for my friends to remember me and for all my songs to be used by my friends in bands

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
no comment

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
none

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
hair does not matter

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO AT?
(hysterical laughter) oh yeah like that would ever happen

16. DO YOU LIKE PORN?
every guys does

17. WHAT ARE YOUR FIVE FAVORITE MOVIES?
High Fidelity, Say Anything, Serendipity, The Crow, Haggard

18. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF GOING FOR VACATION?
Canada

19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
probably ashley

20. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE?
not very well

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX ?)
mix tape from second ex, but I'd rather not think of that

22. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE SINGER(s)-
Ville Valo

23. FAVORITE BAND(s)
Velvet Underground, HIM, The Ramones, MCR,

24. WHAT KIND OF BOOKS DO YOU LIKE TO READ?
any that can keep my attention

25. FAVORITE DESSERT:
i don't know

26. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR COFFEE?
i don't like coffee

27. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE QUOTE ?
"What came first, the music or the misery?"

28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
yes

29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
to their face, or in a song or poem

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
1.2456743265798374658392716481945659572613926(you said any number)

31. BLONDES, REDHEADS OR BRUNETTES?
redheads

32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
i dont call people that much

33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
stupidity

34. HAVE YOU EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
yes, long time ago

35. WHO IS YOUR CURRENT CRUSH?
I'd rather not say, I'm trying to move on from them

36: WHAT IS YOUR WORST FEAR?
never finding true love

37: SAY SOMETHING TO SOMEONE YOU HAVEN'T SEEN/TALKED TO IN AWHILE:
i miss you

38: HAVE YOU EVER SAID "I LOVE YOU" AND NOT MEANT IT?
only when I was forced to, again second ex, rather not talk about it

39: WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS SURVEY?
listening to Bright Eyes, talking to Matt

40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
nowhere

41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
I was bored, but hell I'm always bored

42. WHAT DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PIZZA?
cheese

Just In Case

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 19:38:57 GMT

Hey, if there is anyone out there wants to be on my friends list that isn't already, let me know. I don't know why I think that anyone will want to be added, but just in case.

Jeremy Asbury

A Bit On The Emo Side Today

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 19:10:16 GMT

Tsunami Bomb-Dawn On A Funeral Day

Did you ever realize why there are no stars in the sky?
Because they're on the ground.
The air is brown.
We're trapped in this town.
Let me go -- I can't breathe.
I drag myself through the debris.
I never felt more alone than on this starry road.

The air is warm but I feel grey.
The chill of dawn on a funeral day.
I lie in unrest while heavy dirt falls to my chest.
I fade away and the hollow phantoms stay.

Imagination in a chokehold, I've been steamrolled by gold records.
Inspectors are watching over me, under lock and key.
Chalk my outline; they'd talk of this if I'd died from a broken heart.
They've taken art, turned it to something they think we'll buy.

The air is warm but I feel grey.
The chill of dawn on a funeral day.
I lie in unrest while heavy dirt falls to my chest.
I fade away and the hollow phantoms stay.

My blood is their liquid vitamin.
Their madness festers under their skin!

The air is warm but I feel grey.
The chill of dawn on a funeral day.
I lie in unrest while heavy dirt falls to my chest.
I fade away and the hollow phantoms stay.

I have never felt so alone in my whole life.

Why Do I Do This

Mon, 25 Apr 2005 22:44:07 GMT

Why do I quit and then come back the next day, this is the second time. God dammit I hate myself. And I know there will be people saying not to, but I won't hate myself long, I'm starting to calm down. I'm happy though.

Ever think about how much you have affected someone. Sometimes it's unreal. Don't know why I said that, I just felt like it. I can't think of anything else to say, so I guess this is goodbye.

Jeremy

P.S. Somebody left me an anonymous comment and it kills me that I don't know who it is, if that person could just tell me, thanks.

You're Wasting Your Time Reading The Name Of This Entry

Sat, 23 Apr 2005 02:10:04 GMT

Got back from hanging out with Matt the second day in a row. I can safely say I had fun both days. Tomorrow should be interesting Nicky D's band (The Serenity Prayer) is playing at Crossroads and it'll be the first time I'll see Shawna since the break up, should be weird. I'm glad I didn't go to prom, because it's raining right now, HA HA to all you that went. I'm just kidding, I love you all.

Jeremy

I Think It's Pretty Accurate

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 04:29:59 GMT

You scored as Nightcrawler. History
Kurt Wagner, alias Nightcrawler. Son of Mystique; father unknown. [Note: Father in comics was Count Eric Wagner, who died under mysterious circumstances; this has not yet been revealed on the show.] Mutated during infancy, presumably even more than he was at birth, by Magneto. Upon discovering her son's condition, Mystique fled into the woods with Kurt. She was chased by wolves, as well as Magneto, and cornered on a bridge. The baby Kurt fell from her hands into a river, whereupon he floated for a while until a farmer fished him out of the water.

The farmer and his wife treated Kurt like their own son. He lived with them throughout his childhood, never knowing who his real parents were. He performed with a circus for most of his childhood, until his powers began to become more prominent, at which point he travelled to the Xavier Institute.

Profile
Kurt's abilities include teleportation, exceptional agility and acrobatic prowess, and a prehensile tail. He is the least normal-looking of all the X-Men, with a pointed tail, pointed ears (some would say elf-like... or Vulcan-like, depending on how you look at it), three-fingered hands, two-toed feet, and fine blue fur.

Despite his appearance, Kurt is the definitive Mr. Nice Guy - kind, sensitive, jocular, and enthusiastic about almost everything. But underneath this, he's a very vulnerable person, always conscious of his appearance. Though a holographic inducer allows him to blend in with normal teenagers, he's always aware that it could break down at any time. As if that weren't bad enough, the inducer does nothing to hide his physical characteristics, so he always has to take care not to touch anyone, lest they feel his fur or three-fingered hands.

Or his tail. Speaking of which, have you ever wondered where he holds his tail when he's at school, so that he won't hit anyone with it? Draped over his shoulder? Wrapped around his leg? Hmm. Also, have you ever thought about what a pain it would be to have only three fingers? What would it be like for Kurt to, for example, touch-type on a keyboard? Or how about playing the piano - I shudder to think of that one.

Let's now address a somewhat contentious issue - Kurt's age. Most sites will tell you that Kurt is fourteen or fifteen years old. This could be possible, were it not for the fact that he has, on more than one occasion, driven the X-Van (most notably in The Cauldron Part I). This would mean that he must be at least sixteen. "But wait!" I hear you cry. "What if the driving age in New York, the state in which Bayville is located, isn't sixteen?" This page should show you that it is, indeed, sixteen.

Lastly, have you ever wondered why there's a wisp of smoke left behind after Kurt teleports? I looked it up, and it turns out that it's part of the atmosphere from the dimension through which he travels while teleporting.

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Nightcrawler

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Professor X

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Shadowcat

65%

Storm

65%

Colossus

60%

Banshee

55%

Beast

55%

Jean Grey

50%

Wolverine

50%

Cyclops

50%

Archangel

45%

Rogue

40%

Iceman

40%

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Bored With Nothing Better To Do

Sun, 06 Mar 2005 23:41:52 GMT

Wish you gave me a number
Wish i could call you today,
Just to hear a voice.
I got a long way to go
Getting further away.

If i didn't know the difference,
Living alone would probably be ok.
It wouldn't be lonely.
I got a long way to go
Getting further away.

A lot of hours to occupy it was easy
When i didn't know you yet,
Things i'd have to forget.

But i better be quiet now,
I'm tired of wasting my breath
Carrying on, getting upset.

Maybe i have a problem,
But thats not what i wanted to say.
I prefer to say nothing.
I got a long way to go
Getting further away.

Had a dream as an army man with an order
Just to march in my place
But a dead enemy
Screams in my face

But i better be quiet now,
I'm tired of wasting my breath
Carrying on, not over it yet.

Wish i knew what you were doing.
Why you want to do it this way.
So i can't go the distance,
I got a long way to go,
I'm getting further away.
I got a long way to go
Getting further away.

Just thought I'd share the lyrics to "I Better Be Quiet Now" by Elliott Smith for those of you who haven't listened to any of his music, so now you know what you are missing, so go out and listen people. Not really much else to say except for I'm sorry for what happened to Matt. Things like that shouldn't happen to someone like him, I'd rather that happen to me than him, than anyone, not just him. Sorry dude, hope things go better.

Jeremy

Doing What Jesse Does, As Usual

Wed, 02 Mar 2005 23:19:50 GMT

LAYER ONE:
-- name: Jeremy, Jerm, Asbury, I've also been known to respond to "that guy"
-- birthplace: Maryville, Tennessee
-- current location: Maryville, Tennessee

LAYER TWO:
-- eye color: brown as brown gets
-- hair color: brown
-- height: 5'8"
-- righty or lefty: right
-- zodiac sign: Virgo
-- your heritage: Irish and Scottish, yes yes
-- the shoes wore today: Vans
-- your weakness: public speaking
-- your fears: rejection
-- your perfect pizza: any pizza
-- goal you'd like to achieve: forming a band

LAYER THREE:
-- your most overused phrase on AIM: yes yes
-- your thoughts upon first waking up: I don't want to get up
-- your bedtime: 11:30-midnight
-- your most missed memory: wearing pigtails to the football games

LAYER FOUR:
-- Pepsi or coke: Pepsi
-- mcdonald's or burger king: burger king
-- single or group date: I'd be lucky to get either
-- Adidas or nike: don't care
-- lipton ice tea or nestea: Lipton
-- chocolate or vanilla: mmm, chocolate
-- cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino, I guess

LAYER FIVE:
-- smoke: what exactly?
-- cuss: fuck yes
-- sing: yes yes
-- shower everyday: occasionally I miss a day
-- have a crush: there's really not a time when I don't
-- like(d) high school: it's not done yet, but I like it so far
-- want to get married: don't know
-- believe in yourself: when I'm optimistic
-- get motion sickness: not really
-- think you're attractive: I don't like saying that about myself, but I'm not ugly
-- think you're a health freak: no
-- get along with your parent(s): Dad, yes. Mom, sometimes
-- play an instrument: not well

LAYER SIX:
in the past month...
-- drank alcohol: no
-- smoked: no
-- done a drug: no
-- had sex: no
-- made out: no
-- gone on a date: no
-- gone to the mall?: no
-- eaten an entire box of oreos: nope.
-- been on stage: no
-- been dumped: no
-- gone skating: no
-- made homemade cookies: no
-- gone skinnydipping: no
-- dyed your hair: no
-- stolen anything : no

LAYER SEVEN:
Have you ever...
-- played a game that required removal of clothing: no
-- if so, was it mixed company: I just said I didn't
-- been trashed or extremely intoxicated: no
-- been caught "doing something": no, for that you would need to do something, whereas i do nothing

LAYER EIGHT:
-- age you hope to be married: don't know if I want to be
-- numbers and names of children: 2, Ashlen and Lloyd(or some other music or movie reference)
-- describe your dream wedding: H.I.M. and The Cure
-- how do you want to die: with "the one" telling them how I feel about them
-- where you want to go to college: Oklahoma, MTSU, or Marshall
-- what do you want to be when you grow up: something involving music
-- what country would you most like to visit: The British Isles or Canada

LAYER NINE:
-- best eye color? no preference
-- best hair color? don't care
-- short or long hair: medium length
-- height: who cares?
-- best articles of clothing: I don't know
-- best first date location: I don't know
-- best first kiss location: I wouldn't know that

LAYER TEN:
-- # of drugs taken illegally: I'll never tell
-- # of people i could trust with my life: don't have a number
-- # of CDs that i own: about 400 thanks to Jesse
-- # of piercings: none
-- # of tattoos: none
-- # of scars on my body: 4 that I know of

Last Person Who...
-- Slept in your bed? me
-- Saw you cry? me
-- Made you cry? myself
-- Spent the night at your house? can't remember
-- You shared a drink with? don't know
-- You went to the movies with? don't you know by now I have a horrible memory
-- You went to the mall with? read the last answer
-- Yelled at you? Matt, but it's all in good fun
-- Sent you an email? Jesse

Have Your Ever...
-- Said "I love you" not to family but to significant others? Yes
-- Been to New York? no
-- Been to Georgia? yep
-- California? no, but Jesse's going, bastard
-- Hawaii? no
-- Mexico? no
-- China? no
-- Canada? no, (damn)
-- Danced naked? no
-- Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day? no
-- Stalked someone? no, what kind of freak do you think I am?

Pick One...
-- Apples or bananas? bananas
-- Red or blue? red
-- Walmart or Kmart? Walmart
-- Math or English? math, I hate english
-- radio or CD? CD
-- drawing or painting? I suck at both
-- High school or college? college, from what I've heard

The Last Few Questions...
-- Last time you went out of the state? Thanksgiving
-- Things you like in a girl/guy? open-minded, good taste in music, movies, etc., intelligence, artistic
-- Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend? no, not in a LONG time
-- What book are you reading now? High Fidelity
-- What's on your mouse pad? a peace sign in red Sharpie
-- Favorite board game? Sorry
-- Favorite magazines? any music magazine, as long as its good music
-- Favorite sound? sitar
-- Worst feeling in the world? Rejection
-- Do you like scary or exciting rollercoasters? I guess
-- How many rings before you answer? depends on my mood
-- If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be? lead singer of a band
-- What are you going to do after you finish this survey? Whatever I feel like, gosh

Brothers Don't Let Brothers Fuck Brothers Pt. 2

Mon, 28 Feb 2005 03:52:19 GMT

Your LJ Prison by redfrog021
Username
Favorite Deadly Sin
You are convicted of	Buggery of a Midget Clown With a Balloon Amimal
And sentenced to	Life without Parole
Warden	chasing0my0tail
Abusive redneck guard	rabid_rabbit
Easy to bribe guard	blueshorty42069
Cellmate	plhchicken
Wants to make you their bitch	vexing_isnt_it
Drops soap in the shower on purpose	heather_ctx
Works in the laundry and smells people's undies	killxsluts
Comes to see you for 'conjugal visits'	hippiepoet

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Ok, so what are these people trying to say about me and Jesse?

Sun, 17 Oct 2004 21:55:29 GMT

I'm making my live journal friends only.

Fri, 15 Oct 2004 20:20:52 GMT

I wold like to start by saying to my brother, PLEASE DO NOT RESPOND TO THIS ENTRY! Getting back to my thoughts, I am starting to think that me and Aubrey will never be. I'm thinking maybe I'm the kind of person who lives life alone. I know I'm only in high school, but I think I'm not perverted enough to have a girl-friend. In other words, I'm not like 99% percent of the male population the uses women as objects. But I'm not really looking for a girl-friend as much as a person to comfort me and tell me everything is ok and that things can not get worse than they are now. Right now I'm listening to Elliott Smith, and that's not helping me. It just adds to the depression I already feel, which I don't think can get much worse.

I can't talk to Aubrey, because she's my best friend and I have known her for so long. It's hard to say to her face how I feel about her. I'm not used to displaying my feelings for everyone to see, but I'm trying to change that. Oh well, so goes life. "I just wanna walk right out of this world 'cause everyone has a POISON HEART." Joey, Dee Dee, and Johnny R.I.P.

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 20:58:16 GMT

Well, I stand before you still a single man. Yeah I still haven't talked to Aubrey, but I made a deal with Jesse that if I do not talk to her by the time he comes back, he gets to kick me in the nuts. That by itslef gives me more courage to talk to her, but I think that I am gradually growing the balls to tell her how I actuallt feel. Right now, I'm getting mixed signals from her. I really do not know the kind of relationship she wants with me. Of course, women alone are confusing. But, I can't talk because I'm a guy and all guys are alike. I'm starting to think I'm a feminist in a man's body.

I AM AN IDIOT!

Mon, 11 Oct 2004 20:13:41 GMT

OK, so today was the first day back in school, that alone made me happy to get away from the madhouse that is my house. But on the down side, I did not tell Aubrey how I feel about her. God I am such a nut-less idiot. I need to grow some balls and tell Aubrey that I love her. If I do not, I know that some other guy will jump to the opportunity and I will want to kill myself. Hopefully tomorrow will be the day, if not I'll just keep descending into my own personal hell. YAY! If she says no, I will be crushed, but it is better than wondering what could have happened. To leave you, I will recite the words of Rodney Dangerfield, may he rest in peace, "NO RESPECT."

Do What Now?

Sat, 09 Oct 2004 20:28:39 GMT

Okay, so me and mother are driving toward Pigeon Forge and on the side of the road there is a church. Now here is where I get confused, the sign for the church said, and I quote "Get R Done For Jesus". Now, I do not think I am the only one who is tired of Larry the Cable Guy and "Get R Done". Also, before we went to Pigeon Forge, mother went crazy. She stopped me at about 10:30 at night going to my room to say that I hate her as much as Jesse and that If i wanted to live with my dad she would have that arranged, but thankfully she calmed down. Because right now I do not need this kind of stuff messing up my life even worse than it already is. But, I think I can fix this problem. On Monday I am planning on finally growing some balls and talking to the girl that has taken over my life. Right now I do not care what her answer is, just the fact that I get an answer will be better than wondering "What if". I leave you with the famous words of Timothy Leary "Tune In, Turn On, Drop Out"

Mon, 04 Oct 2004 12:45:09 GMT

Hello again to all one of you who read this. Well my mom is making me go to Pigeon Forge with her because she just realized that Jesse does not want to talk to her. I can not believe it took her this long, He did not want to talk to her while he was here. And now she is pumping me for information on why he does not like to talk to her, and I do not want to tell her. I sort of feel sorry for her, but I don't know the whole story. Now, to make a 180, let's talk about my out-of-home life. First football, the Redskins lost, again. How could they lose to the Browns? Now, it is time for me to incessantly whine about my school life, yay! Actually the single life is good. I have been single for 2 1/2 years, and the first 2 years did not bother me, I had fun. It's just this last half year that has been hell. The single life can be enjoyable, until you care about someone who just so happens to be your best friend and you see her every day and every time you see her you wonder "why am I not with her?" Oh well, that is all I have to say. Later.

Sun, 03 Oct 2004 17:53:50 GMT

Good morrow all. This is my first live journal writing. Right now I am out of school for the week and I actually miss school. There is nothing to do outside of my school life, because I have none. Plus it is even worse because I won't be seeing Aubrey. In case you do not know Aubrey is the girl that keeps me awake at night and makes me constantly hate myself. Near the end of my Freshman year we tried to start a relationship but summer was coming up and she went somewhere on break and we would not have seen each other much so she broke it off. When I came back to school I found out she was dating my brothers friend Jason and that really hurt. But luckily they broke up and I have been pacing the floor thinking about what I am going to do. Love is the very thing that keeps you alive, but it's the very thing that kills you. I'll leave you with a quote from Elliot Smith that pretty much describes my situation, "Nobody broke your heart/you broke your own cos you can't finish what you start."